37 weeks 4 days *sigh*
One word: uncomfortable
My appointment went well today.
2-3 cm dialated
So she isn't engaged yet, and hasn't moved down since last week. I have gained a pound and half since last week, probably all of the tootsie rolls I have been snacking on. I bought a huge variety bag from Sams Club to fill Jax's pinata - and I shouldn't have opened it already :P
I tested positive again for GBS. No surprise there, I figured I would. Basically that means that I need to be at the hospital within 30-45 mins if my water breaks OR need to be there early enough during active labor to get 2 doses (4 hours apart) of antibiotics to prevent transmission to the baby. Well, with Jackson - I only received 1 full dose and they started the 2nd dose early because I was already 9cm by then.
5pm - started contractions after being stripped for the 2nd time at my 39 week appt.
8pm - omitted into the hospital
1am - delivered Jax
So my labor and delivery was pretty fast. I pushed for only 40 mins and that was delayed because my doctor wasn't there yet. I have concerns this time around because my doctor said that second deliveries almost always go much faster. How am I suppose to get to hospital with at least 4-5 hours of laboring time to ensure I get the 2 full doses of antibiotics... if this delivery is going to go faster than my first? I am worried that I won't have enough time to administer the antibiotics. Basically - if I even THINK that I am in labor - I need to get in the car. At 38 weeks with Jackson, when I was stripped the 1st time I went into laboring contractions 2 days later. I went to the hospital to be checked out, spent 3 hours there before being sent home. While it was a pain (and truthfully sad to be sent home) - I can't take the chance this time to either "wait it out at home" to determine if the contractions are the real deal or not.
I am such a planner, list writer, note taker, list REwriter.... having every detail of this event completely at random and not planned ahead .... drives me crazy! I know that in the moment, I go with the flow very well. But it's all the time proceeding that moment where I drive myself nuts making up scernarios just so I can "create a solution" for them and make myself feel like I have a good handle on things.
She'll be here soon.
I am struggling a little bit with knowing that the time is fast approaching when I will say goodbye to my son, kiss his lips and tell him mommy will be home soon. I will climb into the passenger seat of my car, heaving through contractions - thinking that it will be the last time I was with my son - just us 2. I will soon be bringing home a baby and no longer be able to give him my 200% attention. That makes me kinda sad. I have been taking extra long hugs, extra long looks at him lately. He's my little boy, all I have ever known of being a mother. Soon our time will all change and life will be hectic for a while, but I hope that he will know just how much I love him and that my love will never change.