Christmas cookies and delicious treats.
Christmas stories and visiting family.
Falling snow and building snowmen,
Decorating the Christmas tree,
Shopping for Christmas gifts.
How can one NOT be in the mood for the Christmas Season?
This time of year seems to bring on the hard times for our family.
Something about this time of year that delivers bad news.
December 2005: Paul's Aunt Joni passed away from a long battle with breast cancer
December 2006: Paul's father Mike, suffered a heart attack
December 2007: Paul's mother Kathy, was diagnosed with stage 3a breast cancer
And this December...
just one week ago...
My mother, Dawn has been diagnosed with breast cancer
We know that she has a nodal that is malignant. We know that she has had her second of three biopsies today - to determine if the present calcification spots are also malignant. We know that Mom is opting for a double mastectomy to eliminate greater chance of a recurrence in her breasts. We know that this Wednesday, Mom has an appointment with a surgeon at a larger hospital for a second opinion. We know that she had to give up her passion... running a daycare out of her home, for 6 months while treatment and recovery are necessary. She had to sit her young children down and explain to them that Dawnie is going to be sick for awhile and will not be able to take care of them.
We don't know the stage of cancer yet. We don't know if the two enlarged lymph nodes have been infected or not. We don't know exactly what type of treatment will be necessary to beat this cancer.
We know that cancer has spread through our family like... well, like cancer.
We know that while this time of year should be greater than all other times, a time to celebrate the birth of Christ Jesus and rejoice for the gift that was paid for us so many years ago... while this should be the only thing that matters .... we are faced with yet very trying Christmas season. We are heavy hearted and weary hearted.
I know that The Lord is my light and my salvation. Whom shall I fear?
I know that The Lord is the strength of my life. Of whom then shall I be afraid?
Father, please give me strength for the road ahead. Please allow me to be the steady hand when my family needs one to hold. Please ease my weary heart and fill me up with your gracious hope and courage. I pray for you to fill my lips with the words you will have me say, when I have failed to find them on my own.www.caringbridge.org/visit/dawnpuerling