Friday, October 9, 2009

Always My Baby Man

On of my many projects to complete before we have company for jackson's first birthday is to finish our master bath. I am ashamed to admit that since we never decorated this bathroom, we never even had a decorative shower curtain hanging... just the cheap vinyl one :P


So I spend all of Jackson's nap today painting the trim/edging in the bathroom. I had taped it all yesterday and was going to get further today, until I realized that I didn't have a roller brush. I must have tossed the last one I had. So, it was just me and a paint brush!




A song came on the radio while I was painting. I don't listen to much country music these days so I decided to flip that on the radio. This particular song played a lot while I pregnant and I liked it at first, then was just over played.

"You're Gonna Miss This" By: Trace Adkins

She was staring out that window, of that SUV
Complaining, saying I can't wait to turn 18
She said I'll make my own money, and I'll make my own rules
Mamma put the car in park out there in front of the school
Then she kissed her head and said I was just like you

-Chorus-
You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These Are Some Good Times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this

Before she knows it she's a brand new bride
In a one-bedroom apartment, and her daddy stops by
He tells her It's a nice placeShe says
It'll do for nowStarts talking about babies and buying a house
Daddy shakes his head and says Baby, just slow down

-Chorus-
You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These Are Some Good Times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this

Five years later there's a plumber workin' on the water heater
Dog's barkin', phone's ringin'
One kid's cryin', one kid's screamin'
She keeps apologizin'
He says They don't bother me.
I've got 2 babies of my own. One's 36, one's 23.
Huh, it's hard to believe, but ...

-Chorus-
You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These Are Some Good Times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this
You're gonna miss this
Yeah, you're gonna miss this

The part of the song that used to get me, was the second verse. Where the Dad is telling his daughter not to rush into starting a family. To just relax and enjoy being a married couple, just the two of them. When I was pregnant, I never once felt sad for the time we would no longer have as "just us two", but the idea had to settle... that in fact there would never be "just us two" any more.

But today as I heard the song, it wasn't the second verse that choked me up, this time it was the third verse. I was standing on top of the bathroom counter trying to paint where the wall met the ceiling, singing out loud and crying.

As Jackson's birthday is coming up in two weeks, I find myself thinking a lot about him as a baby. It wasn't long enough. I am going to miss these times. I will miss everything about it. All the bad things now that I wish would move on... I will wish I still had 10 years from now. This year went by way too fast for my comfort. I feel like once I finally get a handle on something... it changes! I get comfortable with a routine and Jax goes ahead and grows out of it. The plumber in the song still calls his 36 & 23 year olds "babies". And that breaks my heart.


Jackson will be 12 months in 12 days, he isn't a baby anymore. But this little man, no matter how old he is, will always be my Baby Man.






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9 comments:

croleyc69 said...

What a awesome post & so true. They grow up to soon. My son is 9 yrs old and where did those yrs go. 9 more yrs and he can move on. I'm already seeing in Carly at 5 months that so much has changed about her. Everyday something new & it makes me sad as a Mom cause those things they do when they are little you can't go back & get. With all my other kids I worked & so sometimes I missed those first things. It's just one of those things we can't control but just know that all those special memories we will have to look back on. I love that song to & I'm not a big country fan. Thanx for sharing {{HUGS}}

Christina said...

You got it Momma. Not a day goes by that I don't sit and think about how often I said "please God make it so they are older!!" I did that a lot when they were infants. I didn't get to enjoy them like I should of, or could of..I don't know. I totally understand what's coming from your heart. Thank you for this great post!

Myra said...

Ok, so you made me cry. Our babies are growing up wayyyyy too fast. I just wish I could make time stand still and enjoy every single second.

I'm thinking that I'm gonna have to write my thoughts down too for a post...maybe next week. :)

Thanks for sharing!

HeatherOz said...

It is so great that you know to cherish EVERY moment now! I didn't realize it with my first baby and didn't have time to remember with my twins. Luckily I got to have my Daisy and I remember EVERY day to cherish EVERY moment with all 4 of my babies!!!

Kate said...

I hear ya! I don't listen to country music that often, but I do like that song. My dad and I danced to Stay Little at my wedding. He is going to turn one so soon! How are the decorations coming?

Holly said...

I loved this post, April. The song is so true, we wish for things in the future instead of enjoying what we have in the moment. You can't ever go back and relive those moments so we need to take them in when they happen. It's hard to believe how fast our children grow up. Kyndra will be 2 in January. Carleigh would be 6 months and Jordan would be 6. WOW.

Nicolasa said...

What a beautiful post. I used to listen to country all the time and haven't lately and now I want to again! I have never heard that song and those lyrics are so true!

My sister is in college right now, talking about how she wants to graduate and have a job and I keep telling her to enjoy every minute of it because once she is out, she is going to miss it- I know this is true!

SayRah said...

What a touching post. It is scary how fast time flies! I find myself constantly hoping and praying to get pregnant, then I stop myself and say-"well, Lord, I will in YOUR time, not in MINE". So every day I appreciate the time that I have with just me and the dear man I have. Because I know soon those days won't be here anymore. It's all about cherishing the moments that we have right now.
Thank you for all your sweet comments! They mean so much to me!
*God Bless!
~Sarah*

SayRah said...

Hey April!
I have something for you on my blog :)
Please come by to pick it up! (wink wink)

((hugs & blessings))